.Friday, May 28, 2010 ' 8:20 AM Y
It's getting more and more tiring each and everyday. Shift work is not as easy as what i've thought. I'm getting very demoralise, everyday go to work... work alone in counter , eat alone at canteen go to work alone , go home alone . I got no good click there neither do i have good colleague to talk to except my mentor but i am different team with her so i hardly see her. i don't click with them because they speak those language i dont understand , how can i get involve with their conversation ? And i dont understand their culture.No friends , tiring shift work timing and the off days is always unable to meet up with anyone . The day before my off i have to work till 10pm reach home 12 am , the day after my off i have to wake up at as early as 3 plus AM for work. How can i feel my off day and i don't fucking rest well.I dont mind waking up early but can rest on weekend or public holidays at least there's motivation there for me to pull through the working days but NO, no no.. nothing. Everytime meet up with family ... i always go back early with those unbearable feeling. i always have to go back early because of the next day work.. how can i meet them after my work the day before my off day ?? i off work at bloody 10pm.Nothing make mi happy in there.. nothing motivate me. It's been so long that i ever laugh out of my heart. So long never feel happy unless i'm drunk.People might think that i am thinking too negative.. u will never know how bad it is unless u come and try(many just dont understand and i dont see a point explaining too, i chose to keep everything down , so dont ask me a single question ).The only reason that keep me was only the good salary. Tat's allwell , guess i have vend some feeling out through this blog but still i dont feel any. better. Nowadays i am way too tired to talk.
But i appreciate those who have concern about mi, thanks. Anyway just let mi be bah.. i really dont feel like talking because by telling out will recall those unpleasant thing.So i chose not to.
.Monday, February 22, 2010 ' 1:07 AM Y
Guess i can close down this blog soon... i'm way too busy and lazy to blog . 
.Thursday, January 21, 2010 ' 12:25 AM Y
These bags capture my attention while browsing through the website.
nice nice ! anyone wan to buy for mi ?
lols
.Wednesday, January 13, 2010 ' 7:53 AM Y
Working life can learn alot of things but on the other hand .. tiring too. It's not physically tired .. but mentally tired. Stress and pressure causes me to be very demoralise
Those fucking shift works is making me to give up everything.. my time with family , with Mr.ant and with friends.Lucky they are all understanding people.Worst... i think my chinese new year will be gone too. Its the only time i can spend with my parents , my long time no see relatives and all kinds of enjoyable time with them playing poker etc etc.. and nOW? i'm gonna missed everything because of the shift work. Yes the fucking shift works.Even though i am 100000000000000000000000000000000000000 million unwillinglybut what can i do ? I have to take things easier.
I have to learn to grow up. No longer can be obstinate like a kid .. or even throw temper to get what i want.
Working life is always like this. You don't get what you want. I believe everyone face the same problem and difficulties too. Learn to overcome obstacle.I hope i can learn to be more optimistic, to be more mature and independent when problem comes to me.
.Wednesday, January 6, 2010 ' 9:30 AM Y
Changing from Team C to SMC . It's a speacial morning team. Which mean.. I have no night shift .Morning afternoon afternoon OFF Morning morning afternoon OFF.morning: 6am - 2pm and afternoon: 2pm - 10pmLabels: paused at that moment of time.
.Monday, December 28, 2009 ' 6:17 AM Y
Migraine A migraine is a very painful type of headache. People who get migraines often describe the pain as pulsing or throbbing in one area of the head. During migraines, people are very sensitive to light and sound. They may also become nauseated and vomit. Migraine is three times more common in women than in men. Some people can tell when they are about to have a migraine because they see flashing lights or zigzag lines or they temporarily lose their vision.
Many things can trigger a migraine. These include
Anxiety
Stress
Lack of food or sleep
Exposure to light
Hormonal changes (in women)
Terrible feeling !
Me and Mum
First day of new year, it's also valentine day. 
